Soon to be big sister

ThursdayMarch 23, 2017

So my life is finally starting to slow down just a bit, but I almost feel like its just the calm before the storm. This last week I got to spend some much needed mother and daughter time with my fave girl (my daughter) as much as we are all excited for this new addition, I realized that very soon she will no longer be an only child and of course I am not sure how that will all play out, one thing I wanted to be sure of is letting her enjoy to the fullest these last days, as well as getting to enjoy being a mom of one before it all changes. So thankfully, since this little munchkin doesn't seem to want to debut anything soon, it almost seems like everything just aligned perfectly. Last week was spring break for my daughter, and since I have been off of work we took the entire week to bond and get myself out of the house walking as well.
To be honest even though there were a few days where I was gonna lose my mind because of how exhausting some days were, and I just couldn't keep up with her energy (I kid you not she could literally go all day and not be tired once, well except on car rides lol) But being around her each day made me just realize how crazy everything in life is. To think just 5 years ago my life was at a completely different place, and the thought of being a mom wasn't even something that had remotely crossed my mind. But when I look back on my life today, I wouldn't trade being this little girl's mom for anything. She has completely changed me, in so many ways the things that I would take for granted before and not pay a second glance to before I have learnt to appreciate even more. I was 23years old when I had her, and I was scared out of my mind of what kind of mother I would be to her. I was still finding myself, and now I would have to lead this little person's life and do the right things, and honestly I haven't mastered this whole being a mom thing and there are still days when I miss my life prior to being a mom but I know God has placed me right where I ought to be.

Its been a blessing to see this child grow up and bloom into this ball of personality and joy, I am not sure how all these changes will affect her but I do know one thing that she is gonna be the best big sister ever. She tells me everyday "our baby is going to be the best ever" and that just reassures me as a parent. To know that I have had a hand in helping raise this child that loves and cares so hard and in her little and sometimes overbearing ways wants the best for her family. She matches to her own drum and is not afraid to let her personality shine no matter what setting or person she is with. As I go from baby 1 to baby 2 I won't even lie to you how scared I am , but just knowing that this baby will have the best big sister ever makes it very comforting.

2017 so far Life Update

WednesdayMarch 08, 2017

This might just be my own year, but honestly 2017 has just been a crazy busy year so far. I feel so overwhelmed and constantly feeling like my to-do list never gets done, and it is always rolling over into the next day. And lets not even start to talk about living life with a toddler, and then getting ready for baby, so yes 2017 has gotten off to a crazy busy start. But thankfully its time to finally get some much needed rest, and focus on baby watch (I am so ready for this little one to be out already, I think I am counting down the seconds now lol)

Anyway with all the busyness of the year so far, there have been a few eventful things. For one my baby turned 4, I still can't believe I have a four year old toddler. It amazes me every year when she turns a year older and all these new characteristics form and just seeing her mature it truly is something to experience as a parent.

I also got my life together and beat this laziness just a little bit and packed my hospital bag, you would think this was my first child with how clueless I was about what to pack or where to even begin. But thanks to this baby center article, it gave me a general idea of what I needed to put together without packing my entire closet.
I am officially on maternity leave which is something I never got to actually enjoy with my first baby, so this time around I am truly taking a break to relax and not just physically get ready for this baby but mentally. And also enjoy some time with my daughter, seeing as she is probably going to be affected by all these changes the most so just trying to make her last few days as an only child the best I can. Granted its no walk in the park, cause my body is exhausted and I feel like I am cranky all the time (Jesus take the wheel lol)

Cultural day at school

And with being off work now, and I have lots of time to get the house baby ready and I think my nesting instinct has kicked in majorly, and also my toddlers' (home girl is constantly trying to sweep lol)
I have no idea what the rest of 2017 has in store for us, but I am excited also nervous but very excited for all the changes to come and how our lives are going to change within the next few months.